Tara's Personal Adoption Journal 2007

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19 months DTC!



December 05, 2007
19 months DTC!  Billy and I celebrated by going to Imperial Garden after church tonight.  We are going to be so sick of chinese that when we go to China we'll eat Pizza Hut & McDonald's every meal.  (Yes they do have Pizza Hut and McDonald's in China.)
Billy's fortune cookie said, "Find a place to stand and move the world."
Tara's fortune cookie said, "Treat yourself to a special time this coming weekend."
Our 8th Anniversary!
December 04, 2007
Today is our 8th Wedding Anniversary!  It's hard to believe we have been together that long!  Billy and I have been through so much....and longing for children all the way.  We can't wait until Nora gets here and we can pour some of that love on her!  We are planning to celebrate our anniversary when we go out for Chinese tomorrow night!
Billy's Birthday
November 29, 2007
Today is Billy's 39th Birthday!  We celebrated by going to Texas Roadhouse to eat.  We hope Nora will be here before Billy turns 40.  I keep telling him he is old enough to be her grandfather, but he won't listen.  I still love him and have no doublt he will make a great Father!


18 months DTC!
November 05, 2007
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Billy and I celebrated our 18 month DTC today.  We have revival at church this week, so we went to Imperial Garden after church.
Billy's fortune cookie said, "You deserve respect and will eventually get it." (Not sure what that means, he already has my respect.....for being the Man God called him to be!)
My fortune said, "Soon someone new coming into your life will become a very good friend."  (Hopefully that means Nora)
(Of course the 18 this month is in honor of my favorite NFL player - Peyton Manning!)
2 loooooooong years
October 24, 2007
Today makes 2 long years since we applied for Nora.  Although the wait has been long and when we applied for her we thought we would have her within 12 months - we know that God is still in control and knows exactly the right time for her to be born and to come home to us!  God is still an on-time God!  Billy and I have been very busy the last 2 months preparing her room and her bathroom and trying to fill our time with productive activities. 
The last year has been a hard one for us both.  My mom has been sick with cancer and in March we found out her cancer was gone.  Then again on October 5th her CT scan showed  the cancer had returned.  We are glad it was found early again and it is only in her adrenal gland and in the lymph nodes above the adrenal gland.  She is taking chemo again and they may even remove the gland.  She just found out today that her PET scan results show that is the only cancer in her body - which is a great blessing! 
As we continue to wait - we ask you all to pray for my Mom, pray for us as we wait and also to pray for Nora, wherever she may be, that God and his angels will watch over her until we can bring her home.
17 months DTC!
October 05, 2007
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Today was our 17th month since DTC (Dossier to China)!  On October 24th, it will be 2 years since we applied for Nora's adoption.  At that time, we had no idea how long the wait would be.  We are still much closer than we were, but I am beginning to run out of ideas for pictures for this journal each month!  Ha Ha! 
Today Billy and I celebrated by going to P.F. Chang's.  This has become our favorite place to eat!  The food is excellent and so is the service.  We were really treated on this trip - the manager - Joshua Gadd came over to the table to check on us and we striked up a conversation.  We were really full and did not have room for our favorite dessert on this trip (The banana spring rolls, served with toasted coconut and pineapple ice cream - YUMM!!!!!)  We asked if we could find that delicious ice cream anywhere other than P.F. Chang's and of course NO you can't.  It is made exclusively for them.
However, the manager brought over a complimentary dessert on the house just for us - and the ice cream scoop was HUGE! 
We have been to P.F. Chang's so often now the staff is getting to know us and look for us every 5th day of the month - too funny!  We had a wonderful waitress named Ashley - who was great and we will ask if she is working on our next trip.  After she learned our story, she told us that she was adopted and wanted to adopt too one day.  Such a sweet girl!
Billy's fortune cookie said, "Opportunities surround you if you know where to look."
My fortune cookie said, "Getting together with old friends brings new adventures."
Chinese Moon Festival
September 25, 2007
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Today is the Chinese Moon Festival!  The moon was so beautiful tonight!  Billy and I went outside tonight to look at the moon and think about and say a prayer for our precious daughter.  I had chinese for lunch today and my fortune cookie said, "You have firm convictions - stand strong behind them."
The picture is from the Chinese Moon Festival at Chinatown in New York City!
Shaohannah's Hope Newsletter.......great advice!
September 20, 2007
Today we received the fall newsletter from Shaohannah’s Hope and I had to share a story from the newsletter.
 Rick and Cherly Richardson adopted two children from South Korea.  This is their adoption advice.
 “Everything will work out in God’s time.  We did pretty well during the wait, paperwork, financial drain, and more wait, but still we would give in occasionally to the helpless feeling, wasting precious energy in doubt.  If I could impart anything, it would be to have faith and resist the temptation to doubt.  God’s time is always best.  The struggle that we have faced has only made us stronger and more apt to lean on God as we face future struggles.  We knew as we prayed and anguished waiting for our little miracles to come home, that the day would come, and the reward would be much greater than the work, and boy we were right.  We have been blessed beyond comprehension.  The days of waiting seem pale now as our children call us mom and dad.  Our cup runneth over!  My advice during the wait would be to seek God, find patience, and wait for Him to move, because when He does, the joy of your child coming home will make you chuckle at the horrible “wait” you had to endure.  When I look at my beautiful children today, I smile when considering how many times I complained about the wait, and I always think to myself, “I would have waited on you forever.””
 This is exactly how I have felt, especially this year.  October 24th will be 2 years since we applied for our adoption and the last 9 months have been the hardest for me.  I don’t want to complain at all because I know when they place my beautiful daughter in the arms of her mom and dad that we will forget all of the hard waiting we have endured!
 Isaiah 40:31 says, “But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.”
 This scripture has helped us make it through the last few months and that is exactly what we will continue to do……..WAIT……on the Lord.  I know He has something in store for us because He loves us so very much and I am so glad He choose us for this journey! 


USCIS Fingerprinting.......again?????
September 14, 2007
Today we received  a notice from the USCIS that we are to report to Atlanta to be fingerprinted again!  We were just fingerprinted in May and those are not scheduled to expire until 8-2-2008.  I will have to mail back the notice along with a copy of our updated I 171-H to both Memphis and Atlanta and hope for the best in their records.  Say a prayer that we get something back in writing soon saying that we are all up to date.
Shaohannah's Hope
September 10, 2007
We received an email today from America World (our agency) asking for anyone who is interested to work at a booth for Shaohannah’s Hope at one of Stephen Curtis Chapman’s concerts this fall.  The closest one to us is on Friday, November 16th in Nashville .  We received a grant from Shaohannah’s Hope in the amount of $2,000 last October!  We sent back an email letting them know we would be more than happy to help! 
 Shaohannah’s Hope is a foundation set up by Stephen Curtis Chapman and his wife Mary Beth to reach the church with God’s call to care for orphans and to help more children experience the miracle of adoption.  During Stephen Curtis Chapman’s “Live In This Moment” tour this fall to promote his new album, “This Moment” (in stores October 23rd) he is promoting “Change for Orphans” and asking concert goers to bring all their loose change to help change the life of an orphan! 
 We are very excited to promote this and you can visit Shaohannah’s Hope on the web at
 Or Stephen Curtis Chapman’s website at www.stephencurtischapman.com 
16 Months DTC!
September 05, 2007
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I loved this pic of number 16....if only this were our number for referral....
Today makes 16 loooooong months since DTC.......ha ha.  Billy and I celebrated by going to eat at Imperial Garden after church.  Billy had double luck with 2 fortunes in his cookie.
My fortune said, "Your luck will soon be at a high point."
(Maybe we will get a referral soon!)
Billy's fortune's said, "You will be thankful for the pleasures of the coming months." and his other fortune said, "Something on four wheels will soon be a fun investment for you!"
(I hope this means something for Nora........ha ha)
Nora's Bed
August 25, 2007
click to enlargeToday we FINALLY got Nora's bed put together.  We started last Saturday, but realized very soon that the hardware was no where to be found.  I had to call JCPenney and request the hardware.  It finally arrived yesterday and it only took us about an hour to put it together!  Billy did most of the work and we didn't kill each other....ha ha!
15 Months DTC!
August 05, 2007
click to enlargeToday was our 15 month celebration of our DTC!  We celebrated by having lunch at P.F. Chang's with my brother Josh and his girlfriend Lori, who brought a gift for me and Nora.  For me, she brought a T-shirt with the breast cancer emblem and for Nora she brought a book about the prophet Elijah.  I can't wait for her to read it to Nora!

Billy's fortune said, "You should have a talk with a friend today."
My fortune said, "An unexpected relationship will become permanent."
Josh's fortune said, "The problems of today will soon be buried by the sand of time."
Lori's fortune said, "Don't pursue happiness - create it."

(To see more pictures, see the link labled "15 month DTC Celebration")


We are in the matching room!!!!!!!!
July 12, 2007
We found out today that our dossier has officially been reviewed by the CCAA and is now in the matching room!  This means they are FINALLY in the process of actually matching our paperwork with a child that is in the CCAA's system!  This process is expected to take about 6 more months, so we are expecting a referral sometime in January of 2008!
This date actually changed on July 5th but we didn't find out until today - which happens to be my Dad's birthday!
We are very excited about this news as this is the most information we have heard in 14 months! 
You can keep track with the CCAA's document processing by viewing their website.  The english version can be viewed by clicking this link.

14 month DTC!
July 05, 2007
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Billy and I celebrated our 14 month DTC anniversary by going to PF Changs to eat tonight.  Billy used the chopsticks once again!  We had a great time!  Billy's fortune said, "Getting together with old friends brings new adventures."  My fortune said, "Your love of life can carry you through any circumstance." 
I'm not sure my love of life has carried me this far on this journey to my beautiful daughter, but I know my love for her surely has!
News on Nana Bunnie!
June 25, 2007
Great News!  My mother just had her second cancer free CT Scan!  She is now able to have her knee replacement surgery which is scheduled for July 25th!  Please continue to pray for her and her recovery from this surgery!  She is eager to get this behind her and be completely recovered from all her health issues for Nora's arrival early next year! 
(By the way, she has been walking around with a broken shin bone taking chemotherapy treatments!  She is one tough lady!)
13 months DTC!
June 05, 2007
click to enlargeToday is our 13 month DTC Anniversary!  Billy and I got takeout from YUMMY and had a picnic on our back porch together!  Billy's fortune cookie said, "You will inherit a large sum of money".  My fortune said, "You will be sucessful in everything."
1 Year DTC & LID Celebration
May 19, 2007
click to enlargeToday we were given a celebration party to celebrate our 1 year DTC and LID dates.  This was given by our friends Mitchell & Sherri Roe at their home.  Everything was decorated in traditional chinese colors, Red and Black.  We even got a few gifts and so did Nora.  We cannot wait until we receive our referral and we can at least share pictures of the beautiful child that God will give us!  There a few pictures of today on a new link labled "DTC PARTY".  Hope you enjoy!


1 Year LID (Log In Date)
May 16, 2007
Today is our 1 year anniversary of our LID (Log In Date), which is when our Dossier was logged into the CCAA (China Center for Adoption Affairs).  Currently the referral times are 18 to 19 months, so we are hoping to have a referral by the end of the year!
Happy Mother's Day
May 13, 2007
Dear Sweet Daughter

As a girl I had a common dream, to be a mom someday.  My baby would have eyes of blue and hair the hue of hay.  But now my dreams have been transformed.  New visions fill my head.  Now the tresses I long to stroke are raven black instead.
 And in my dreams those eyes are not so big or blue or round.  Now in my dreams they’re almond shaped and colored cocoa brown.
 And in my dreams my arms can stretch across enormous seas.  They reach halfway around the world and hold you close to me.  As you grow in your mother’s womb, carefully knit together, you’re also growing in my heart, where you will stay forever.  And in my dreams the moment that your mother says goodbye, I’ll be right there to comfort you and hold you as you cry.
 Our features may not look alike; we’re different as can be.  But still I know the Father has created you for me.  And though I’ve not seen your face, or held your tiny hands, and though we’re half a world apart in very different lands.
 I’ll be right there to get you just as soon as God allows.  But till he says the time is right I give to you this vow.  I’ll pray for your protection every night on bended knee.  For God will hold you in His arms, until you’re here with me.
-Gayle Leubecker
1 year DTC!
May 05, 2007
click to enlargeToday is our 1 year DTC anniversary!  (For those of you who are new to chinese adoption talk, that stands for Dossier To China)  Our paperwork was sent to China a year ago today. 

Billy and I celebrated by going to P.F. Chang's to eat and then going to see Spiderman 3!  Billy actually eat his entire meal with chopsticks.....which is a miracle!  Now maybe with practice he will not get us killed when we go to some rural province in China and he asks the waiter for a fork!  (The chinese consider utensils like forks the same as a weapon)  Billy's fortune cookie said, "The limit to your abilities is where you place it."  (Fitting for today) 
My fortune said, "Learning is a treasure which accompanies us everywhere."  I have to say I agree!
Fingerprinting.......again!
May 03, 2007
Well, our fingerprints for Nora's USCIS approval expire this Sunday, May 6th, so Billy and I went to Nashville today to be re-fingerprinted.  They expire after 15 months and we wanted to wait as close as possible to the expiration to have them re-done just in case our referral doesn't come for another year.  The girl that did Billy's prints told him that they have had several families come in for their 2nd prints...but not ANY for their 3rd......which is GREAT news.....so far!  We had a great day...we stopped in Murfreesboro and eat lunch at a place my brother told us about - the Santa Fe Cattle Company - great steaks!  Only 2 more days until our 1 year DTC Anniversary!  I can't believe it has been a year!
Nana Bunnie's 60th Birthday!
April 20, 2007
click to enlargeToday we celebrated my (Tara) Moms 60th Birthday with a party and 50 of her closest friends at the home of Bob Hughes.  My Mom had a great time and enjoyed getting to see all her friends and family and spend time with them!  Happy Birthday Nana Bunnie!  The picture is of Mom with her life long friends Kathy and Suzanne.


11 Months DTC!
April 05, 2007
click to enlargeToday is our 11 month DTC anniversary!  Billy picked up chinese takeout from YUMMY because I had to work over and we had a picnic on our backporch when I got home.  Billy's fortune cookie said, "Let the spirit of adventure set the tone."  My fortunce cookie said, "Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well."  Only 1 more month until our 1 year DTC anniversary!
PRAISE THE LORD!
March 30, 2007
Today, my (Tara's) mother found out that she is CANCER FREE!  She had been taking chemotherapy treatments off and on since December and has been terribly sick at times.  On Wednesday, March 28th her oncologist decided to take another CT and Bone Scan before starting a different type of chemotherapy drug.  On Friday the results were a Miracle - All the cancer is gone!  We just want the thank the only person that is responsible - GOD!  And THANK YOU to everyone that has prayed for her quick recovery.  None of us could have made it without your prayers!  Now she has plenty of time to completely recover and get ready for Nora's arrival!
The Promise..........
March 29, 2007
Below is a poem I wrote today about Nora........
The Promise
As the night sky pours out a mysterious shade of light
The sun waits in anticipation of the day ahead 
A child a half a world away dreams of the day she awakes
to the loving arms that long to hold her 
A family destined to be no matter what fate may deliver
An urge so strong that nothing or no one could explain the determination she once had 
Yet how could something so simple alter the dream off its course 
What does the journey hold for this child? 
Could she rise up as Esther to save her people? 
Or win souls for the cause 
Whatever her destiny holds I know full well the promise given to this family 
This beautiful child that waits across the sea will be loved like no other 
Her Father found her so special that he chose her for this life 
Because no one else could fulfill his plan the way she will…. 
10 Months DTC!
March 05, 2007
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Today is our 10 month DTC anniversary!  (It has actually been 17 months since we applied for Nora, but who's counting, right?)
Billy and I went to eat at YUMMY in Cleveland with my best friend Sherri and her husband Mitchell and children Sarah and Colton .  We had a great time and cannot wait until Nora is here with us to share in all the fun. 
Below are our fortune cookies:
Billy: “You have much skill in expressing yourself to be effective.”
Tara : “You love challenge”  (evidently)
Sherri: “There is a prospect of a thrilling time ahead for you.”
Mitchell: “You will be unusually successful in business.”
Colton : “An angry man opens up his mouth and shuts up his eyes.”
And Sarah’s cookie did not have a fortune in it, but as beautiful and intelligent as she is I can only imagine the future that God has planned for her.

February 22, 2007
Billy and I had our 3rd and last Hepatitis A & B shots today.  Those are all the vaccines that we are required to get to travel to China.


Happy Chinese New Year!
February 18, 2007
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Happy Chinese New Year!  It is not only the year of the Pig, it is the Year of the Golden Pig.  According to Chinese folklore, this is an even that occurs once in every 600 years and will ensure that a baby born on this year will experience a prosperous and wealthy life.  So, will Nora be born in the year of the Golden Pig or in the year of the dog?  I really don't care, I just hope she gets here in the year of the Golden Pig!
Billy and I went today to eat Chinese at Panda Garden.  My fortune cookie said, "You will soon receive an offer you cannot refuse."  Billy's fortune cookie said, "Don't Stop Now!"
9 months DTC!
February 05, 2007
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I am officially overdue!  Today is 9 months since our dossier was sent to China!  Today Billy and I had lunch with my brother Josh and a few friends of mine from work, my supervisor Tracy Dyer, Lisa Friend and Christy Swafford.  We went to Panda in Hixson (one of my favorite places for lunch).  Below is everyone's fortune cookies:
Tracy
“Get your mind set – confidence will lead you on.”
Christy
“The weather is wonderful.”
Lisa
“You are a person of culture.”
Tara
“It’s a nice day.”
Billy
“A pleasant surprise is waiting for you.”
Josh
“You will do well to expand your business.”
For Nora
January 21, 2007
Below is a poem that was written especially for Nora

For Nora........

You may not know this
But you will wonder why
How did I get here
From across the sky

Through many a prayer
And a heartache or two
A fountain of tears
Flowered the beauty of you

Yes, you are more special
Than the fiddlers bow
Your cries are sweet music
Only your momma could know

So, we searched for the moment
To begin our great quest
Your father and I
In search of our treasure chest

No beautiful pearl
Could be found on this shore
No not that special diamond
So we search even more

We crossed a great ocean
And coveted every prayer
Hoping beyond hope
That we would find our jewel there

As the searching got harder
And the miles were more
A little light shined, appeared
So, we ran through that door

We put our feet to flight
And we never looked behind
The treasure now before us
Which we new we would find

And the treasure was more beautiful
Oh bright shiny and new
Cause the jewel set before us
Was the treasure of you

We brought you back quick
To have and to hold
Our happy ever-after
Your story now told.............

January 19, 2007
Today Billy and I celebrated my 31st birthday.  It was bittersweet, however, because our very close friend, Michael Dean passed away today.  He helped us so much during our paperwork phase of the adoption by notarizing nearly all of our documents.  He was so excited about our daughter Nora and I know he will be watching over her in heaven, for I'm sure that is where he is now.
Merry Christmas!
January 06, 2007
I know Christmas is over for most everyone, but we finally had our Christmas dinner today with my Mom!  She went into the hospital on Christmas Eve and was there for 12 days.  We are so glad that she is finally home and well and eating again.  So today we celebrated all of that with her and had our Christmas Dinner!  Next year for Christmas I want my Mom well and Nora sitting in her lap playing with her Mam!


8 months DTC!
January 05, 2007
click to enlargeToday was our 8 month DTC Anniversary.  Billy and I went to Panda Garden to eat.  Billy's fortune cookie said, "Custom is a great guide."  My fortune cookie said, "Acting on a good idea is better than just having a good idea."  I'm so glad I acted on the idea of adopting Nora!
(OK.  The pic of the number 8 this month is of course in honor of Nora's Daddy and her uncle Josh.  Go Dale, Jr.!)
Happy New Year!
January 01, 2007
click to enlargeHopefully this will be the year of Nora!

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